Reflections and Big Life Changes

4 years ago today. November 11th 2015. I remember so vividly my world completely shattering all around me. My life suddenly like grains of sand through my hands when I saw those text messages. And that was nothing compared to what would follow. The sudden and completely unexpected reality of my partner’s sex addition, that would destroy my life and eventually lead to the loss of my marriage, my home, my hopes, my dreams, and the future I had so fully invested in, left me a complete shell of the person I was. The dearest, most important things in my life, just gone. Looking back, sometimes I marvel that I even survived what happened at all. But in those moments, and years of despair, I refused to give up. Because somehow, from the very deepest places within me, I discovered a strength that I never knew that I had. And that was my faith. It was my faith that persevered when I couldn’t, and it gave me the strength and hope to carry on. And while it’s still incredibly hard sometimes, and days like today still feel tender, looking at myself in the mirror this morning and reflecting on the girl I was 4 years ago, I am in complete awe at the goodness and grace of God. And am grateful beyond measure for how far I’ve come. Even though my life doesn’t look the way I thought it would, and rebuilding has been beyond hard at times, I am still so very thankful for this second chance at a beautiful life for myself. Because the truth is, that for most of us, life doesn’t turn out the way we hope and pray for. And while there is so much joy in this life, there are also copious amounts of heartbreak. And while it sometimes overwhelms me to think about the hurt in this world, I still see and believe in that light in the darkness. And want to BE a light in the darkness. And that’s why I have chosen to share pieces of my story  with you all over the last couple of years. Because I remember a time when I didn’t think I could go on, when I couldn’t even say out loud what had happened in my life, let alone believe that I would be ok. But here I am today, with true joy and gratitude in my heart. And while it’s been a long, hard road, and I am forever changed and forever scarred, I can say that I have found happiness again. So I just want to remind you today that you too can do hard things. You can survive whatever life brings your way. Because YOU are so worth the fight. Whether you realize it or not, and as hopeless as it might seem at times, we each hold the key to our own happiness and it is up to us to be the ones to write beauty from ashes on the pages of our stories.

As my story has unfolded these last few years, and I’ve navigated the many stages of grief and healing, trying to figure out what I wanted my life to look like, something pretty major started shifting in my heart. And so today, it felt fitting to share some big news with you guys that I have been keeping close these last couple of months…I’M MOVING! And wow. It feels pretty surreal to put that out there in writing like that. There is so much of me that is excited for this change, but there is also part of me that is scared to death. And my heart is already aching in anticipation of the goodbyes I am going to have to say. Truly, I have had the best friends and community in Salt Lake that I have ever had in my entire life. And leaving them is going to be one of the hardest things I will ever do. But at the end of the day, I’ve slowly but surely realized that my heart has been calling me home to Montana. My happy place. It’s time for me to have that completely fresh start I’ve been longing for, and most importantly, to be with my family. So Whitefish, here I come! I can’t wait to share more with you all about my move, my new place (it’s on the river!), my redecorating process (it’s a way different space than my current one), and all of the things that will come with this monumental life change. But for now, I am looking forward to every second that I have left in Utah with my people, my framily, who have never wavered in their love, support, and encouragement of me. I’ve been thinking a lot today about the fact that despite losing everything four years ago, that I’m not only still standing, but standing here today with more richness in relationships then I have ever experienced in my life. How LUCKY I am to have such beautiful people around me that will make saying goodbye so hard. So wherever you are right now, whatever your story, don’t give up. I promise you there is goodness and light on the other side. Beauty from ashes.

And thank you, as always, to all of you for your constant encouragement of me over the years.  Your love and support means more than I could ever say and I can’t wait to share this next chapter with all of you.

xoxo

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Mad About Plaid

As if the Fall Cabi line couldn’t get any cuter, now they’ve gone and launched new arrivals.  And guys, they are SO good!  When I got to have a sneak peek at what was coming in the new launch a few weeks ago, this plaid jacket was the first thing I knew I needed to have in my wardrobe.  And it’s even cuter in person.  Plus it’s such an easy piece to style now AND take into cooler temps (and the holiday season!).  Today I paired it with my favorite band tee and OTK boots, but it would also look amazing with a dress, or over a cozy sweater with Sorels when the snow starts flying.

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Snow Valley Jacket

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Full Cabi Fall Collection

Be sure to come say “hi” on my Instagram today (@alldolledupblog)!  I’ll be sharing a few more of my favorites from the new fall collection!

Thank you guys so much for stopping by!  Happy Wednesday!

xoxo,

Abs

Spring Trends

I am wearing four of my favorite trends for Spring and Summer in today’s outfit post: destroyed denim, an off-the-shoulder top, platform sandals, and round sunglasses.  And while I’ve been playing around with the first three trends for quite some time now, I just recently purchased my first pair of round sunglasses.  And I have so say, I am LOVING them.  In fact, I just ordered a second pair with a gradient lens, as opposed to mirrored and I can’t for them to get here.  I’d also love to know, what are some of your favorite trends for this season?

Top (shein c/o) | Denim (less than $100!) | Hat | Sunnies | Bag | Platforms

Hope you guys are having a great week!  Thank you SO much for stopping by!

xoxo,

Abby

 

Floral Dress

If you guys have been following this blog for a while, then you definitely know I am a huge fan of long-sleeved dresses.  And this Spring is no different.  While I also always love wearing light jackets over dresses this time of year, sometimes it’s kind of nice to leave the extra layer at home.  Plus, I’m always game for any kind of dress with a little twirl factor.  And this one definitely fits the bill!

Dress | Bracelets | Sunglasses | Bag | Booties (old), similar, similar

Hope you guys had a wonderful weekend.  And here’s to making Monday count!

xoxo,

Abby

 

Velvet Jumpsuit for NYE

I had good intentions of bringing you festive and sequin-filled NYE inspired posts all week.  But unfortunately, things don’t always go as planned, and I was involved in a pretty major car accident on Tuesday morning. While my car was totaled, I was fortunate enough to walk away from the accident with only a concussion and minor injuries.  And while I am grateful to be alright, it was also a good reminder of how precious life is.

And of course it’s got me thinking.  As events like these often do.  It’s so easy in this day and age to put together and present a perfectly curated life through social media.  But I’m feeling led to share with you guys that my life is anything but perfect.  And if I’m being totally honest, I can also tell you that 2016 has been the hardest, most challenging year of my life.  And I’ve really been struggling this week to wrap my head around how it could possibly be ending with a serious accident on top of everything else. But rather than let myself get down and discouraged (which I’ve totally been doing), I’m reminding myself in times like these, that it’s important to take a step back, take inventory of the blessings you DO have in life, find the joy in the hurt, the laughter in the messiness, surround yourself with those who love you most, and thank God for His grace, protection, forgiveness, and unfailing love.  That is after all, what this holiday season is all about, isn’t it?

In other (more fashion blog-worthy) news, how amazing would this green velvet jumpsuit be to wear to a NYE party (or any other party for that matter)?  If I’m feeling well enough to make it out on NYE this year, this is definitely what I’ll be wearing.  Fingers crossed!

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Jumpsuit | Necklace | Sunnies | Clutch | Heels

Wishing you all a safe and happy New Year this weekend.  And a huge thank you for your continued love and support, and for making this blog possible.  Y’all have been such a bright spot in my life this past year and I am so appreciative!

Cheers to a better and brighter 2017!!

xoxo,

Abby

 

 

 

Plaid Coat

I love a good plaid coat.  Especially one that doesn’t break the bank, like this cozy black and white one (only $25!).  Plus, the longer length makes it super cozy to throw on for those cold, snowy days.  In fact, it’s kind of like wearing a stylish blanket!

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Jacket c/o Shein (only $25!) |  Top, also love this | Denim | Monogram | Sunglasses | Bag | Booties (old), similar

I have to be honest, I am always pretty sad when Christmas comes and goes.  But I am looking forward to a shortened work week and ringing in 2017.  Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas celebration with your families and loved ones.

xoxo,

Abby

 

 

 

 

 

Green for Christmas

I love red and sparkles so much, sometimes I forget about wearing green during the holidays.  So when I saw this choker top at Express, I knew it would be perfect back to my favorite black faux fur vest and studded booties.  And not only does this look work perfectly for the holidays, it will work well beyond the month of December too.

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Top  (obsessed) | Vest | Denim | Sunnies | Bag (old), similar | Booties

Can you guys believe tomorrow is Christmas Eve?  I can hardly wrap my head around it.  Thank you so much for stopping by and for all of your support this year.  I appreciate you all so much.  Wishing you and your loved ones a cozy, safe, and wonderful Christmas celebration.

And Happy Friday!

xoxo,

Abby

Rose Quartz Skirt

I have absolutely been loving shades of blush and rose quartz this season.  And this sweet pleated skirt has quickly become a favorite in my wardrobe.  Not only is it easy and fun to style (with some serious twirl factor!), but it’s less than $40, and a perfect choice for those holiday parties coming up this month!

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Skirt, also love this color, and this velvet version | Tee | Jacket | Necklace | Sunnies | Clutch (sold out), similar | Pumps

Hope you guys have a great Monday!  Thanks so much for stopping by!

xoxo,

Abby

 

 

Hooded Parka

I have to say, even though I grew up in Montana, and now live in Utah (making me a seasoned winter veteran), I am having a hard time getting used to the cold this year.  So thank goodness for hooded parkas with faux-fur trim, and cozy sweaters (this one is super soft and on major sale) to keep me warm!

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Jacket: TJMaxx, also loving this, this, and this | Sweater: Chicwish c/o (on sale and also comes in red!) | Skinnies | Sunnies | Bag | Pumps

Can you believe it’s December already?  The end of this year is seriously flying by!

xoxo,

Abby

 

Plaid Vest

You know I love a good vest.  And a plaid vest?  Even better.  It’s the perfect way to complete an outfit and looks great styled with dresses, or paired with denim for a more casual look.

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Plaid Vest (old), similar, similar, similar, similar | Tee (obsessed) | Denim | Sunnies | Necklaces (here and here) | Bag | Booties (old), similar, similar, similar

Is it just me, or does the week after a holiday always seem to be really long? Here’s to hoping this half of the week goes by a little quicker. Thanks so much for stopping by!

xoxo,

Abby