It’s hard to believe it’s been exactly 3 months since my car accident. In some ways, it feels like 3 months of my life have been completely lost to the fog of this concussion, as I’ve battled severe sleep deprivation, fatigue, a newfound fear of driving, mild dizziness, vision issues, and a roller coaster of emotions on top of some already difficult life circumstances. I haven’t been able to partake in a lot of the things that I love, like skiing, biking, Orange Theory, hiking, going out with friends, or even shopping. And despite really disliking hospitals, I have found myself having to go to countless appointments with my neurologist, my neuropsychologist, and my balance and mobility therapist. Fortunately, I’ve been starting to see some pretty significant improvements over the last couple of weeks, and am beginning to feel more like myself. But looking at the last 3 months as whole, if I’m being honest, it’s been really, really hard. And some days I kind of just want to wallow in my own self pity. Ha!
I think I realized a few weeks ago that one thing I was really struggling with was the fact that someone else’s bad decision has had such a negative and lasting impact on my life. And I was feeling kind of angry about it. But then one morning I was sitting in my neuropsychologist’s office, and he asked me if I am the type of person who believes that bad things just happen, or if I believe that bad things (or good) happen for a reason. And for me there was no hesitation. As a Believer, I am definitely a person who believes the latter. While we can’t always see the bigger picture, his question put things into perspective and reminded me that Jesus is authoring the story of our lives. And in some way, shape or form, this accident is a part of my story. One of my favorite verses in the Bible is Romans 5:3-4: “suffering produces perseverance, perseverance character, and character, hope”. I’ve seen friends recently walk this out so well and have admired them so much. And as I sat in that office that morning, I was overcome, because I realized that I too can persevere. So then and there, I made the decision to stop feeling sorry for myself and to commit to walking through the aftermath of my head injury in this way, with perseverance, character, and hope. Because while I can’t control the decisions and actions of others, I can control my own.
So here’s to a positive mindset, a grateful heart, continued improvement, and (what you probably really came here for), more outfit posts!! And a huge thank you to you all for all of your support. You guys really are the best.
Hope y’all are having a wonderful week.
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